A member of my family is currently in hospital, he isnt expected to stay with us much longer...
I know how you feel, I have lost quite a few relatives but just try to keep your chin up and think positive, try and spend more time with your family and say sorry if you have done something wrong.
I have a really strong conscience, even if what I done was only minuscule my conscience will make me feel as guilty as stealing from my mother. I tried thinking past it but I cant, so I know how you feel there as well, really guilty and upset.
These are not nice feelings, you need to get them out, trust on this, keeping them inside hurts you more and more. I done it, and just felt worse and worse.
My kind regards-