So I've been thinking a lot since school started again. I've been asking myself what do I really believe? And I think I've found the answer. An answer that I think I've always known, just never brought up in fear of letting down family and friends. Possibly even myself. Though that's done with and I've decided for myself; as an individual. I believe there is no God. I believe Catholicism is a religion based upon fear. A fear in the sense of high authorities in the Church creating ideas (such as hell and burning in fires for the rest of eternity) to keep the people in line. I believe that religion was created for reassurance in the sense that it makes people content to know/think they know where they go after they die. I also think that it was created to keep people in line while they live. To keep people from doing "unethical" things. Though I think this is understood by most people. I've learned for myself that science gives me enough explanation. It has facts and logic, which I base all my opinions around. When someone force feeds me God saying, "believe this.", "why?", "because we ****ing said so. The Bible says so." "But-", "Shut the hell up, and believe." The above quotes is how I feel my faith has been based up on. Also with 12 years of Catholic studies, I've got a pretty good grip of this theology. And it sickens me. I hate going to Scripture class. I hate having to spew what i was taught back at the teacher in homework assignments. Because simply, I find it's a waste of 41 minutes in my day. I only go to that school because it's one of the best in the state. Now here's what I have to say that's good about Catholicism. It has given me a good moral basis. It's taught me many strong ethical traits I'll need in life. The Bible is an amazing book. It teaches me how to think outside the box and raises many good symbolic stories. where does this bring me now? I'll believe that there could be something there. Though there most likely isn't. Right now I don't care. Right now, I'll follow my own path. I don't want any of God's "special path" that he's designed for me.